A lifelong partnership and friendship with intimacy? Come on! That’s asking a lot, right?Empress Keno
Emotions are everything.
Best things I’ve experienced this week:
Read – receipt. A big goal was accomplished.
Watched – Til Debt Do Us Part – Gail Vaz-Oxley
Listened to- my husband. We exchanged emotions.
Art – Me. I am truly a work of art and learning to see myself as such.
Self Care – cussing, yelling, anger. Expressing myself and my pent up feelings to the point of relief.
Connection made – friendship growth and possibilities.
Lowest vibration – feeling trapped by past baggage.
Highest vibration – realizing I’m only ever as trapped as I feel.
Radical Self Love weekly summary –
What. A. Week. My workload is abundant but so is my gratitude.
I made space to create, as that makes me feel good. I launched a course, amongst other things. I had a big fight that lasted way too long with my husband.
Like, a really big one.
I found myself feeling like I didn’t need to do any of this marriage thing. But, marriage is hard. I’m grateful that my partner chooses to listen and make changes.
There was confrontation about just that. I create order in my life. I have been self governing for a very long time. Whereas, my husband had established order in his life. We are not motivated in the same ways.
The fight was due to a breakdown in communication, like always. I am in this space of Radical Self Love; creating boundaries around what I will and won’t tolerate. The problem comes when there’s something to be changed. Something that I once allowed but no longer tolerate. What matters is that neither of us is perfect but both of us desire to create a healthy, sustainable marriage.
Honestly, I reminded him that he needed to lead that. It’s no secret that I do not have the best feelings about the concept of marriage. The agreement when I accepted his proposal was that he wanted to prove to me why marriage to him is valuable.
I must admit, after every makeup I do find more value in the concept of marriage. Relationships in themselves are hard. A lifelong partnership and friendship with intimacy? Come on! That’s asking a lot, right?
I’m still up for the challenge though, I love challenges.
I put a lot of nurturing and care into everything and everyone that I love. I’ve been cultivating skills and talents that drive my business for a lifetime. I find that the more I see the things I’ve been working really hard at rewarding me, the more I expect from everything and everyone that I work hard for.
Balance. Balance is the key to it all. Balancing boundaries, expectations, grace and every other thing that encompasses the human experience can be a lot at times. Life, am I right? The thing is, I would not have any of it any other way.
Emotions are everything.
Salaama. (Swahili for Peace)
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